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So this renegade cross country trip is really turning into something else, literally. I have had a strong desire to just enjoy some REAL freedom without much "structure" other than my own discipline. And I finally feel ready to take on a level serious thriving that is super simple and totally radical!…

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So I have embarked on a 45-day cross-country road trip. And I'm doing it super renegade, sustainable style. R.A.W.K and roll!…

So I promised you a book not too long ago. Well, it is NOT finished just yet. You can thank the 1/perfectionist in me for this opportunity to practice even more patience! I do promise to R.A.W.k your world with what I have been working on though, and I cherish your ongoing support!

In other news, I did fulfill on a different challenge. And that is I found my brother, Nicky,…

One of Dan's students once asked, "When you do this it looks like Fair Lady Works the Shuttles, but when we try why does it look like Fat Lady Works at Shoney's?"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QlX8MfY9ANM

A new world has emerged...

We have arrived at an advanced stage in our human development. Here, differing ideas enhance and dance with one another suggesting a single body of In~formation we all work with. Now, peace is the foundational…

"Have you ever noticed that what you want is not always what you receive. But the things that you receive always seem to reflect who you are at the time and what you need to help move you…

If you accidentally put too much lime juice in your guacamole make soup!
For Monday; I don't fit in the pea pod suit but I'll try to make it as cool as I can!

"If nothing within you stays rigid, outward things will disclose themselves. Moving, be like water. Still, be like a mirror. Respond like an echo."

- Bruce Lee

Spirit likes to play. It's silly to take life too seriously because it is all just a game to…

"Poverty is many things.

Emotional poverty is an inability to give.

Spiritual bankruptcy is an inability to love.…

Last November I wrote to this community about a 21 day detox I was taking on. I made it 8 days before I completely derailed.  I still managed to cut the excess body fat that was making me uncomfortable (even just a week of raw food does wonders), but I didn't achieve my goal - to complete…

New info is now out about the Toxicity of TVP!

 (Texturized Vegetable Protein)

It contains a nerve toxin... Please, Spread the Word!

When I was 5 months pregnant...2 months ago... I accidentally ate some TVP at an all-vegetarian pot luck social, it was labeled "gluten free veggie lasagna."  I really didn't expect that to have TVP in it because I make gluten free veggie lasagnas at home without TVP, and it…

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Hi All,

It's been quite a while since I posted. The long and short of it is, after 20 days without sugar, I grabbed a raw chocolate bar at the Dekalb Farmer's Market and I was off to the races.

It "happened" with a lot of forethought, though the actual gesture took a split second.

Since then I have been eating sugary things off and on. I'm not too happy about the weight I've gained since this, er, "happened." Gaining and losing weight is after all, a calories in and…

Hi All,

My birthday is a day apart from one of my best friends birthday, and we celebrated in a big way yesterday. My friend was turning 50, and I 51, My guess is there were over 50 people attending the party. The party was catered with Jamaican style food. Not much in the way of raw food, but the food was fresh and well prepared. My favorite was the pineapple coleslaw.

Rewind to five hours before the party. The big test, of course, would be the cake. Would I eat any? The funny…

Hi All,

The biggest challenge I thought I would have yet in taking sugar out of my diet happened last Friday. I was at a holiday party and there were sweets galore. There was also really healthy food, a cut above the usual holiday fare. I thought I would have a hard time at the party but I didn't. I really enjoyed the good food and didn't miss the sugar at all.

The most interesting thing that happened at the party was how people reacted when I was turning them down as they…

Hi All,

In response to my last blog, Victoria Moon asked a very important question regarding what “happened” after my last bodybuilding contest. Soon after my last competition I knew I had to begin to attend OA meetings when I could not stop eating. It was really frightening. I knew for some time that I had an eating disorder, but I was able to "control" my very strict bodybuilders diet for about three years, falling “off the wagon” harder and harder after each show. The good…

Hi All,

Yesterday I woke up feeling pretty good about having another day without sugar. I didn't have that guilt that I have the next morning when I've overdone it the night before.

I stayed busy at work and ate pretty well. I had an hour break for dinner and ate a good solid meal. Eating well always helps stave off my cravings. At the same time, I was thinking about my birthday and how hard it's going to be not to eat sugar that day. I was thinking "Dammit, I'm going to break…

Hi All,

Today is day 2 without sugar.

Last night I did have a snack that had no sugar in it: it was from Rainbow Grocery I believe. It was made with carob, spirulina, sunflower seeds, and was date-sweetened.

It was interesting how I reacted to the food, which was brought to me by a friend. I felt like I was cheating, getting away with something. I felt guilt this morning over eating it as I reflected back on my reaction.

The little square treats tasted really good…

Hi All,



I am remaining anonymous here on Permission to Heal because I am in a 12 Step program called Overeaters Anonymous. OA's Traditions do not allow me to state my last name when sharing, in any kind of media, that I am a member. It's important for me to adhere to the Traditions because I do not speak for OA. There are no OA "experts," only people sharing their experience, strength and hope in refraining, through a spiritual program, from compulsive eating.



I am…